Even my most loserish friends have boyfriends now.  Nobody wants me for a relationship, they only want me for my boobs.  Fuck this shit.


I have this friend, and I think she’s stupid

Is it mean of me to think that?

Well she doesn’t seem to understand simple stuff and it’s driving me nuts

a checkmark on facebook

I know you’ve seen my message

but you don’t reply

and I wonder why

Am I bothering you?

Have I fucked this up,

just like everything I do?


How is it,

that one little symbol

can cause me so much confusion?



I should be happy for you

but I’m not

my misery looms ahead

panicked feelings and dread


Jealousy is a toxic feeling

I  need an antidote


save me

it’s haunting me

burning me